Make The Struggles You've Gone Through Into Your Strengths.

[MosheDreamer 4]

If you've lived this life since you were a kid you know what its like growing up without hope, no job, no license. People will tell you they understand what you're going through but the reality is they wont.

The way we view the world is not the same as what the friends we have around us who grew up as American citizens or any other American.  If you're someone out there who's ever felt alone, abandoned, forgotten or unheard.

 I want you to know that I've gone through it and I understand your pain.

I want you to know that I understand the struggle. I understand what it's like feeling like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. I want you to know you're not alone.

I want you to know that I've seen my own brother destroy his life with drugs because he couldn't handle growing up this way I don't blame anyone but himself for doing drugs to deal with his problems but things got bad and the drugs got worse. I hate putting blame on other things and other people but deep down I know what caused him to live way he lived, depression, an unstable home environment due to the way we grew up, parents having to constantly work their butt off to support my mother, me, my older brother, and my little brother in turn they didn't really have much time to do the "little family things'' that other American family's have.

I just wish my brother dealt with his problems differently in a way that didn't hurt the person that loved him the most. I feel like it was me and he just didn't know. I looked up to him and I feel as if he left me to deal with this situation alone when we could have gone through this together. 

Things may never get better with my brother, It's something that I think about everyday and it eats me up inside to know that there's nothing I can do but be the best older brother I can be to my 14 year old brother and make sure I never abandon him the way my older brother did. 

 

On a lighter note my friends, my older brother received his work permit and license a month ago and hes finally driving and "trying" to get a job. he waited about 9 months.

 

Also, my little brother was born here so he wont have to live the way me and my brother lived. so thats good

 

Its August 30, 2013 and I want you all to know I'm still patiently waiting. (Initial review)

I think of it this way. I came here when I was 6, I'm currently 20 years old. 

its been nearly a year but Im happy because I know whats coming.. Ive waited my whole life. One year isnt going to discourage me. I know once I get my permit and license my life's gonna change.  

 

Don't forget guys, we've gone through what others(americans) cant imagine. Turn that into one of your strengths. Be great guys. Opportunity is coming. Hope is here. 

 

 

Thank you for your time. and thanks for reading. I promise you. It means a lot to be heard.